/pony/ - Pony

What is something media wise that just resonated with you? has touched you in a deep part of your being, or surprised you with how you reacted? something that has stuck with you since you watched it?

so i was done working on a project for the day, and i've been trying to really get myself to watch more things, to expand my repotoir and to remind myself why i want to do the things i do, etc.

and after thinking on it, i am reminded of ENA's DREAM BBQ, which i adore, and i've played through it many times, and watched the youtube series on them. it's surreal and bizzare in a way that just sings to my soul; i don't know if you are familiar with the series, but they are surrealist and wild for sure

so i then thought, maybe i should look up surrealism in what i watch next; it is one of m y favorite genres for a reason; so i decided to look up surrealist anime

and i got a whole list of them, FLCL is already my favorite show of all time; so while i could watch that again, i decided to try and find something different that ii'm not as familiar with

and after searching, i stumbled upon something called Cat Soup

it was a short 30 minute movie that's available on youtube, and it's reaaaaaally fuckin good; like the animation is on point, and the lack of dialogue and just wild visuals but also somber melancholy really hit me in the right spot

so the next recomendation was an hour and a half long video essay on the manga artist behind it, the comic series, and the short animated stint of the show. and it's really bizzare, kind of in a similar vein to pop team epic in a way

where there is comedy, but also just blindside you with harsh reality, but it just slides off with nobody caring, utterly unabashed in how irreverant it can be

i dunno if i'd be able to truly enjoy the entirety of the comic series, but i respect it

then i got to learn a bit about the artist, and her life, as well as her suicide back in 1998; which was sad, but it was 27 years ago, so it's hard to be devestated

but what really had me kinda contemplate, is a mixture of her genuine and authentic approach to her comics, in the face of conventional wisdom and norm, but also how she struggled so much to feel normal in the world around her, like she was sorta trapped in her own isolation. "nobody was mean or bad around me, but i still felt a wall around them" sort of thing

and it was just one of those things where i could exactly understand what she felt like, why she made the art she did, and felt a very vulnerable sense of kinship with her and her constantly staring cat personas

i am still kinda feeling a "buzz" about the feelings i sorta got from first the movie, and then learning about the author, and just am sitting with that, and just looking back on my life and how i was also that outcast sort of person, who could not relate to anyone, who still struggles to relate to anyone, and is so vehemently defiant in being authentic, often to my own detriment

i dunno, i just felt a sort of "seen" that i didn't expect today


tl;dr: short film about cats and the person who made them made me feel things